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Yours Truely,

Alicia Leo Qi Lin, Joy :D

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Born on the 24 December 1992, presents are gladly welcome & appreciated! :D
Previously from WVPS, CPS & DSS, now in Nanyang Polytechnic, Business Management.
Was a Choir member in CPS, in Alto & a Band member, in Trumpet Section in DSS, I ♥ Music. :D

I came & knew the Lord on the 23 December 2006 & was water baptised on the 30 March 2008. ♥ Attending City Harvest Church, from CG W466 which was multiplied from ~~E141~~! Also belonging to Pastor Yock Kiang(YK) Zone & under his wife, Wen Ling(WL) Sub-Zone.
Find me during Service 1 :D
I ♥ kids! & hence I'm also in the Children's Church Ministry (CCH), under Pastor Eileen(PET) Zone.
Am also serving as a Cellgroup Guitarist & in the CG too. Walking towards the call He have for me :D

I ♥ my dearest dear, Kong Yun Rui. :D

Single & NOT available. My heart belongs to God for now :)

My darling,
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Thursday, August 6, 2009 @ 6:41 PM

I can't stand my parent sometimes, esp my father.
Seems like parents love to focus on the negative then on positive, correct me if i'm wrong ?
& when you did something very well, they dont care. but when you did something bad or very badly, they care, crap?
Last year during N Level, I've gotten 5 A's out of 7 subject, what did they do? Nothing. Only reward for it . . . is school's $30 voucher? & government edusave scholarship for top 10% in prelim. Parents, nothing.

& now some 'dog' suddenly activated. Why do I use dog? When dog keep on barking, normally it will be the similar sounds of bark. Not a form of disrespect to my parent though, cant find a word to use, hence dog.
That dog been barking about if I score badly for exams, no more church & so on. My father say I've learn bad stuffs from church. Hey, come on, I wish to take my dad on time machine back to the time I've yet to go church & see what I'm really is when I'm not at home, almost everyone I believe or majority, will be in a sense more guai at home, correct ? Last time I hang out with bad company almost everyday, I cut myself (Yes, dont give me a shocked face, I do in the past, typical ah lian), I sleep in class like even if sky fall I wont know, I scold teacher vulgarities, I dont do homework, I dont study for exam till 1 day before exam, and hence the result of this, here I am in NA stream instead of Express which I dropped stream during secondary2).
Do they know, see all this, NO. & maybe hence this is one reason why I shouldnt blame them for not seeing the change in me.

But even if they knew or maybe somehow they will happen to see my blog, why did I did so much of stupid thing in the past. Did they give me something simple called a 'home', they destroyed this by their own hand & we as their children suffer from the consequences. I'm a girl, and hence I do have more emotion than my brothers. A period of times, Im sort of living w/o my dad as he is always at batam (not for business), my mum hence become more 'crazy', that period it was already a very very hard time to past. My mum isnt always home too, she just come home cook & at night she will go out. Isnt it just living without parent support? & I was still growing at that period of time, and sure the impact is big, I see so many of my primary school friend with such caring parents, that time i hated my parent, yes even in primary school. Many many event happened too & I was in a sense alone with no one to turn to. But I guess because in primary school, kids are more of happy-go-lucky.
Had another period of my life, for a few years, my dad isnt around too, my ma was as usual out at night. I nearly went mad, but nobody knew. I kept everything to myself, bottled it up. When everyone is asleep, I go to an empty room & just cry and scream. But its those when you cant make any noise, if not my family will know. This kind of crying is super toturing, try & you will know.

Thought things will go better when I go secondary school, but no. Rather it went worst to max, so who could I turn to ? Friends in school as I was still not in church. But thats also a point I learn almost all the bad stuffs, hence affected me in someway very badly.
& during the point where I really wanted to end my life, life been very hard on me. Just happen Charlene brought me to CHC & from that point on, now I know who I can turn to, that I have someone who is always loving me.

As I type this, I've been crying from the start to the end. It shows its really something deep in my heart. I want to show to my dady somehow, hoping he will see my blog. Christianity isnt just a religion, its a relationship, its about LOVE. Which somehow they had failed to give me. Did they ever see me crying like some baby infront of them, no. I do not want them to worry about me as I know they have enough big trouble which they are facing.

But still back to the barking topic, I'll take my result & prove to them that I'll be the head & not the tail! I will show them a good cert, only this will stop their barking. Just wait & see.
I'm tired from all the crying, bye.
If you wanna make stupid remarks on this post, my advice to you is, dont try me. Thanks. When Im serious, dont play around with me.

I believe all storms, no matter how long or how big, how dark it is, it will still one day end & rainbow will still appear. His promises will never fail. Love